Back in 2017, I dedicated a month to myself. I screen-printed 6 blank shirts with the words “不要泄露或隐瞒我 / don’t reveal or conceal me” and wore them every day throughout that month. That project reflected the spaces my mind was going through: one of internalized gender disorientation and the performative aspects of navigating through a Chinese queer/trans body. Two years later, I changed my name, my pronouns, came out to my parents and resolved a large part of my identity that is very much desensitized to Chinese LGBT politics. Even though, looking back on it, I find the concept and execution of that project underdeveloped, it was important for me to dedicate that durational space to myself, and, through the process of self-ritual, come to terms with unanswered questions.
